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What happen today? I melted, we talk about sex drive, i know once at night is just not enough. She agrees, she did it more than once with her bf, today i get to kiss her head, touch her lips and her cheeks, how i wish to kiss those lips. I will try to put my heart out of the way and enjoy the moment with her
I talk sex sith yanie, we do agree on one thing, there are secrets that only yanie and me knows about each other
Today, i have made my decision, finally, i have chosen Norja. What may be shall be. Why, well i followed a friends advice, just ask her to be my life partner, my wife in another word. She just said no, okay, i ask her to think and consider it, she still says no. That is the the final draw. I think it is time for me to go on with my life. I do have my choices. My dream and my wife, i will be the best husband that i can and implement all the words and promises that i have made to my self. I might not have yanie as my wife, but i will treat my future wife better than i treat yanie. I dont think i will get her anything anymore. The item i given her is the final. i will only pray that her life with who ever will be a good one.
Well, Yanie started work yesterday, we get along together, everything seemed okay. But we get along.Dont argue much, still acceptable. Not as bad as before. Got some recording going to make a summary. I want to listen between the words. I still like her, but she refuse me like anything. The time is near, the time will come when I will purge her out of my mind and my heart. By the 19th, do i want to that, Yanie also talking to me like before. She did not suspect me as the prepotrator. She beginnig to share things with me. i think slowly and surely i will get thing out of her
well another day, today, went to all the people that will be involve in the proposition, some reatives, someone to speak on behalf of me, it is not proper for me to speak by myself. It is tradition, and it seem that is the proper thing to do, if i dont want ot be scorn byt her family. it involve money, a lot of it, which i dont have, we will see how this thing will go.
But few things bothering me, I've prayed very hard to make me forget Noryani, I've dremnt about her last night during sleep, and and this afternoon during my nap, during the night i've dremnt that was in her house dan this afternoon i dreamnt that it was over for her and her bf, she said that with frustration and the only thing, i dontk now how, but we made love. I hope this dream will come true, I only have till 19/4/03, the only thing i hope is that my instinct is correct
Hmm... went to Kuala Lumpur to meett my fiance to be, well discuss few things, including the amount and the thing to bring during the ceremony, the engagement ceremony. Usually during the engagement ceremony the two family will discuss the date of the the wedding, the amount of the dowry and other items that is need for the wedding.
