Catatan Diatas Bukit
Tuesday, April 04, 2006
Herm.. I am glad this site is still here. My wife is with me now, she is pregnant. InsyaAllah by August this year I will be a father. I have come a long way since then, I am still battling with my feeling, but.. I will win the war eventually. I have manage to turn the business around. Right now I am managing this shop and 20 rooms, most of them being rented on monthly basis. I plan to put one up as daily basis and see how it goes.
Tuesday, June 07, 2005
Well i have to come here, dearest me, how bad am I. Having a relationship with a Seventeen Years Old. Anyway, may be it is just the teens, or i am just losing it. Rose, well she has been uncertain. I do feel that she have another, i dont mind realy, it is just that she do not want to share her problem with me. I dont mind if she has another, hurt may be, but glad. At least she is looking for someone besides me, so it is only a crush....a bad crush.. a very naughty crush...He He he... I had good time with her though
well good times a not meant to stay, as i had with yanie..That name.. Sunday, i watched her for a few seconds, trying to find out why am i obsessed with her, is it because..yes it is because i have a strong feeling for her. I still dreamt her..but not my wife. Saturday or friday i dreamnt that she came to me asking for help. I said, i will help her, but strangely, my family was against that. I just told them off... saying that this is a profesional assistant nothing special..etc. They back off.. but then i woke up.
As for Rose.. deep inside my heart i know that she is seeing someone. Well one day..I will know, just have to wait patiently. I love her.. i will always love her.
Uncle cheah came in today after a long while, and he asked why my wife is still not pregnant, do i have problem with her... relationship etc, well i told him... we are using OCP and going to plan the pregnancy. I do not wish for my wife to be on her own when she conceive her first child. I will never forgive my self if anything happen and i am not around to attend to it.
My feeling for her is growing strong as time goes by.
There are a lot of things that is on my mind. I have list them an put an action plan to over come the situation.
1. Shop debt.. because of bad checks my account cannot be opened till december this year and my wife have to close hers because of the same thing. Well we are just living the business, and not having enough money to keep the business afloat.
2. Shop Rental..the shop rental is too high and filling or creating income from the rooms, well i dont have the hang of it yet. I still need to furnish the room..as practical as possible. Install water heater, remove the illegal pantry. And create a more liveable enviroment.
3. Empty rooms..well all of them are filled up.
4. Personal debt..i have a schedule to keep in order for me to pay all the debt. If everything goes well, all debt, mine, will be settle by the end of 2007
5. In ablity to borrow or open current account... well this is time bound. So during the mean time, i will create my business plan and marketing plan, and execute them. I will survive, i will be like the phoenix, that flies from the ashes that it came from.
6. My company account is not yet updated.. it will cost me nearly RM 10k to update this company and i cannot depend on my cousin much for the accounts.
7. Debt to mother... well in order for me to get this shop, my mother have forked out RM 36k from her account, i have to repay that, i hope with something extra.
8. Not enough money to float..well i have to be more prudent with my spending and my control over the cash.
All in all, i believe in my self and i will succeed, if Allah permit. I just wish i have the ability to help my friends and family. They have help me, to be whom i am now.
well good times a not meant to stay, as i had with yanie..That name.. Sunday, i watched her for a few seconds, trying to find out why am i obsessed with her, is it because..yes it is because i have a strong feeling for her. I still dreamt her..but not my wife. Saturday or friday i dreamnt that she came to me asking for help. I said, i will help her, but strangely, my family was against that. I just told them off... saying that this is a profesional assistant nothing special..etc. They back off.. but then i woke up.
As for Rose.. deep inside my heart i know that she is seeing someone. Well one day..I will know, just have to wait patiently. I love her.. i will always love her.
Uncle cheah came in today after a long while, and he asked why my wife is still not pregnant, do i have problem with her... relationship etc, well i told him... we are using OCP and going to plan the pregnancy. I do not wish for my wife to be on her own when she conceive her first child. I will never forgive my self if anything happen and i am not around to attend to it.
My feeling for her is growing strong as time goes by.
There are a lot of things that is on my mind. I have list them an put an action plan to over come the situation.
1. Shop debt.. because of bad checks my account cannot be opened till december this year and my wife have to close hers because of the same thing. Well we are just living the business, and not having enough money to keep the business afloat.
2. Shop Rental..the shop rental is too high and filling or creating income from the rooms, well i dont have the hang of it yet. I still need to furnish the room..as practical as possible. Install water heater, remove the illegal pantry. And create a more liveable enviroment.
3. Empty rooms..well all of them are filled up.
4. Personal debt..i have a schedule to keep in order for me to pay all the debt. If everything goes well, all debt, mine, will be settle by the end of 2007
5. In ablity to borrow or open current account... well this is time bound. So during the mean time, i will create my business plan and marketing plan, and execute them. I will survive, i will be like the phoenix, that flies from the ashes that it came from.
6. My company account is not yet updated.. it will cost me nearly RM 10k to update this company and i cannot depend on my cousin much for the accounts.
7. Debt to mother... well in order for me to get this shop, my mother have forked out RM 36k from her account, i have to repay that, i hope with something extra.
8. Not enough money to float..well i have to be more prudent with my spending and my control over the cash.
All in all, i believe in my self and i will succeed, if Allah permit. I just wish i have the ability to help my friends and family. They have help me, to be whom i am now.
Saturday, May 14, 2005
I have moved to a new location, now my shop is facing the main road. But business is still the same. I have identified few problems, one of them, not enough vareity to cater for the local apetite. But i have to remember sometimes it is just a FAD, so after that it just disappear. FOr instance once i had one tea, which once not enough at all. When it went of the air.. no one, not a single soul buy or ask for that tea.. in the end, i have to dispose nearly 60 boxes of it. This things is giving me a headache, i need to find a better way to keep my stock.
Monday, February 21, 2005
writing this in midvalley, mph. I dreamnt about Ynie again last night, i missed her, when will this end. I will return her things next week, i hope it will be the closing that i am looking for
Monday, December 20, 2004
So far no one ever drop by my entries, which is I very good. But my fear is still there, because of being discovered by unecessary ppl. Which in turn will propergate stories which will cause much harm to me.
Just went through all the blogs that I've put on my favorite list. A lot of things.. change.. my kid sister got knock up, she is getting married after knowing that is already three month. I was hurt and dissapointed with her. Even though she have hurt nearly all the family member because of her irresponsible act, she still maintain her air of arrogance and as if there is nothing that she have done to deserve the thing that is happening to her now.
I was hurt by her comment.
I would like to help her to better her life. Yes, it always start at the bottom. It is always hard. Our family is not a well to do family. At least I have my own business, which is enough to cater for my needs. So far. And if she is working with me, at least, I can send her to further studies in the business field. But she refuse all that. She just went back to her old ways and, want to start life as a wife, legally or illegally.
My parents, seeing this, agrees to do a simple ceremony for her. But as for me, I let her be after she got married. I do not like her future husband, he is older than me but he act rashly and do not show any intiative to improve their lives. He do not have a proper job, he uses drugs, drinks, steal and I do not what else he has done.
I just pray for the best for them, if ever my sister come to me for my assistance in the future, it shoudn't be because of her husband or with her husband.
I was hurt by her comment.
I would like to help her to better her life. Yes, it always start at the bottom. It is always hard. Our family is not a well to do family. At least I have my own business, which is enough to cater for my needs. So far. And if she is working with me, at least, I can send her to further studies in the business field. But she refuse all that. She just went back to her old ways and, want to start life as a wife, legally or illegally.
My parents, seeing this, agrees to do a simple ceremony for her. But as for me, I let her be after she got married. I do not like her future husband, he is older than me but he act rashly and do not show any intiative to improve their lives. He do not have a proper job, he uses drugs, drinks, steal and I do not what else he has done.
I just pray for the best for them, if ever my sister come to me for my assistance in the future, it shoudn't be because of her husband or with her husband.
Wednesday, November 03, 2004
Subjective things like beauty, love, feelings are those which we describe based on the path we have taken, that is why, there are so many intepertation of each things.. how we feel is actually in our hands
What happen during the last few month. My sister, i fired her because she is taking things and also money from the shop
I found out the amount of money Shuba taken from my shop is very huge and it hurt my business like anything.
Well we see wether i will survive through this
What happen during the last few month. My sister, i fired her because she is taking things and also money from the shop
I found out the amount of money Shuba taken from my shop is very huge and it hurt my business like anything.
Well we see wether i will survive through this
Wednesday, July 14, 2004
I love my wife
And that came from the bottom of my heart, why?, you should hear her when she laughs.
Today, i wanted to start the project that i have put off for so long. It is an obsession. I plan to lay out everything in the open. It is not easy, but i will try with everything i got. After that, everything will be in cold storage :P
But Allah is great, because, the CD which i want to utilised, which i have chosen from other CD was cracked, so i just destroy it.
Good news everyone. I just dont know why.
Sleepy, tommorow have to work harder. My sister is here and she plan to stay longer, I cannot play around anymore in my shop and have to take this job seriously
Subjective things like beauty, love, feelings are those which we describe based on the path we have taken, that is why, there are so many intepertation of each things.. how we feel is actually in our hands, if this is true
And that came from the bottom of my heart, why?, you should hear her when she laughs.
Today, i wanted to start the project that i have put off for so long. It is an obsession. I plan to lay out everything in the open. It is not easy, but i will try with everything i got. After that, everything will be in cold storage :P
But Allah is great, because, the CD which i want to utilised, which i have chosen from other CD was cracked, so i just destroy it.
Good news everyone. I just dont know why.
Sleepy, tommorow have to work harder. My sister is here and she plan to stay longer, I cannot play around anymore in my shop and have to take this job seriously
Subjective things like beauty, love, feelings are those which we describe based on the path we have taken, that is why, there are so many intepertation of each things.. how we feel is actually in our hands, if this is true
